.:MY JEHOVAH’S WITNESS BROTHER COMMITTED SUICIDE. WILL JEHOVAH FORGIVE? CAN YOU HELP ME?
“I need help dealing with the death of my Jehovah’s Witness brother who just committed suicide. My brother and I were raised Jehovah’s Witness, but when I and my mother were disfellowshipped, my brother took it real hard as he could no longer be part of our lives. Like so many Witnesses, he tried hard to be perfect and when he wasn’t able to live up to their standards, it literally killed him. He had doubts and questions that he was never allowed to ask as he had been told that this was ‘independent thinking’ and ‘pride.’ So, he buried his thoughts and feelings and constantly strove to perform better, while he secretly suffered from severe depression and an obsessive, compulsive disorder. His marriage to a Jehovah’s Witness had failed and because of the Watchtower policy against remarriage, he could never have kids and was doomed to life alone. Once he tried to start a ‘bible study’ with my son as this would be a way that he could have contact with us, but when an elder told him that he was not ‘spiritually strong enough’ to study with my son, even that was ripped from him. He felt like a failure and had nothing to live for. He left a note telling us that he ‘loved us’ and begging for our forgiveness. He asked us to cremate him and ‘dispose’ of his ashes. He believed as all Witnesses do that suicide is an unforgivable sin, but in his eyes, he was a walking dead person anyway, so why did that matter? My brother is not in a dumpster but in all of our homes. I know it is just ashes, but it’s all I have. How do I begin to build a relationship with God on a personal level and learn to trust religion? Do you think suicide is black and white with Jehovah or do you think my brother could one day find happiness? If I, an imperfect human, can forgive him, why can’t Jehovah who is love? Please help me!” Continue reading “My Jehovah’s Witness brother committed suicide in Jehovah’s Witnesses. Will Jehovah forgive?”