Gloria – An Fifth Generation Jehovah’s Witness Leaves

Gloria's Horse PhotographyGLORIA – A 5th Generation Jehovah’s Witness Leaves the Watchtower

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Hello, my name is Gloria and I was a fifth generation Jehovah’s Witness. My story goes back over 100 years to the time of my great grandmother. She was born in 1884 and came across Kansas to Oklahoma in the covered wagon.  President Hayes had just opened up the land known as Indian Territory for the settlers to homestead, and they rode horse back in a race to stake their claim on the land.  At 18, she was married and gave birth to a son.  When he was 2 years old, while my great grandmother was shelling peas, he grabbed one, put it in his mouth, chocked and died.  This tragedy lead my family to seek God.  Unfortunately, Charles Taze Russell had a radio program on at that time, and was coming into town.  When Pastor Russell came to town, he came in a carriage pulled by elegant striking black horses, and he was dressed in a black robe.  He was quite the showman.  They were simple country folks, looking for answers.

So started the journey of my entire family giving up their lives to follow the teachings of one man.  They not only followed the teachings of Russell, they became special pioneers and eventually put in 150 hours a month traveling from town to town in the Midwest, showing the photodrama of creation.

That was one of the first talking movies (before talking movies even came to be) and so it drew in many people.  At that time, Russell’s group was called the International Bible Students.  I had 7 aunts, uncles and great grandparents of the anointed 144,000 (the only ones who as Jehovah’s Witness’s get to go to heaven, which means they actually partook of communion).  Most Jehovah’s Witnesses of today do to not partake of communion. Instead, they pass the bread and wine and touch it, but they would not think of actually putting it in their mouths and swallowing it…Yes Jesus at John chapter 6 says, “eat it, partake, or you have no life within yourselves.”    Continue reading “Gloria – An Fifth Generation Jehovah’s Witness Leaves”

My Jehovah’s Witness brother committed suicide in Jehovah’s Witnesses. Will Jehovah forgive?

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.:MY JEHOVAH’S WITNESS BROTHER COMMITTED SUICIDE.  WILL JEHOVAH FORGIVE?  CAN YOU HELP ME?

I need help dealing with the death of my Jehovah’s Witness brother who just committed suicide.  My brother and I were raised Jehovah’s Witness, but when I and my mother were disfellowshipped, my brother took it real hard as he could no longer be part of our lives.  Like so many Witnesses, he tried hard to be perfect and when he wasn’t able to live up to their standards, it literally killed him.  He had doubts and questions that he was never allowed to ask as he had been told that this was ‘independent thinking’ and ‘pride.’  So, he buried his thoughts and feelings and constantly strove to perform better, while he secretly suffered from severe depression and an obsessive, compulsive disorder. His marriage to a Jehovah’s Witness had failed and because of the Watchtower policy against remarriage, he could never have kids and was doomed to life alone.  Once he tried to start a ‘bible study’ with my son as this would be a way that he could have contact with us, but when an elder told him that he was not ‘spiritually strong enough’ to study with my son, even that was ripped from him.  He felt like a failure and had nothing to live for.  He left a note telling us that he ‘loved us’ and begging for our forgiveness. He asked us to cremate him and ‘dispose’ of his ashes. He believed as all Witnesses do that suicide is an unforgivable sin, but in his eyes, he was a walking dead person anyway, so why did that matter?  My brother is not in a dumpster but in all of our homes. I know it is just ashes, but it’s all I have.  How do I begin to build a relationship with God on a personal level and learn to trust religion? Do you think suicide is black and white with Jehovah or do you think my brother could one day find happiness? If I, an imperfect human, can forgive him, why can’t Jehovah who is love? Please help me!” Continue reading “My Jehovah’s Witness brother committed suicide in Jehovah’s Witnesses. Will Jehovah forgive?”

I’m thinking about leaving, but I’m confused! Does anyone have the truth?

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 I’M THINKING ABOUT LEAVING, BUT I’M CONFUSED! Does anyone have the truth?

.:HOW TO FIND TRUTH AFTER THE WATCHTOWER

“I’m beginning to question my faith as one of Jehovah’s Witnesses, but I’m so confused! If I leave, where else can I go? Does anyone have the truth? I don’t know what to believe anymore. Is leaving REALLY worth loosing my Jehovah’s Witness friends and family?Continue reading “I’m thinking about leaving, but I’m confused! Does anyone have the truth?”

Tammie – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness

tammie.: TAMMIE – Former Jehovah’s Witness Pioneer

Raised by Jehovah’s Witness parents (her father an elder), Tammie was confident she was in the only true religion. Pioneering in her 30’s (spending at least 90 hours per month), she reported an average of 10 “Bible studies” and placed 100’s of Watchtower magazines and books monthly. As a skilled debator, Tammie gave frequent “talks” and “demonstrations” at Theocratic Ministry School from age 7. She was considered the model “Witness” by her family and friends, until the conditional love she had embraced failed and everything in her life fell apart. Only in Christ, did Tammie find what she had been looking for. Continue reading “Tammie – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness”

Stephen – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness

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I was born in 1977 and raised as a Jehovah’s Witnesses until I left at 18 years old.  From a very early age, my mother taught me to recite Scripture from memory.  When I was 6 years old, she married my stepfather who soon became an elder and required all of us children to become examples for the congregation. Oh, how we studied and studied those years to prove ourselves! God was never real to me. It was only how I was perceived by others in the congregation that mattered.

At 8 years old, I joined the Theocratic Ministry School, consistently commented at the meetings and was out in field service EVERY Saturday morning. But at 13 or 14 years of age, the need to be accepted by the “worldly kids” led me to rebel and lash out at school. I never rebelled violently, but I was tired of being different, and made fun of at school. So, I began to live the “double life” as they called it. Continue reading “Stephen – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness”

Pam – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness

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I was supposed to be the little boy who’d save my parents marriage, but by the time I was born, my dad had moved 2000 miles away and never came back.  My mom remarried when I was 3, but divorced him after 6 months, after discovering he was homosexual.  By then, she was easy prey for her 4 younger sisters who convinced her to join them in becoming Jehovah’s Witnesses.

I loved my mom a lot as a small child, but lost respect for her as I watched her allow this organization to rule our lives, forbidding everything from celebrating birthdays and Christmas to receiving a life-saving blood transfusion.  Every word we were or were not allowed to say was carefully dictated, and constantly changing.  We first called our gatherings “classes,” but later we were ordered to refer to them only as “meetings.”  We were required to know the latest terminology, and it always changed.  The person in charge of the congregation went from being a “Congregation Servant” to an “Overseer” to—I think today—an “Elder.”  We’d been instructed to call them the “Judicial Committee.”   This struck terror in my heart, as I believed they were appointed by Jehovah Himself, Who, I believed, was terribly harsh and demanding. Continue reading “Pam – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness”

Jason – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness

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.:THE TESTIMONY OF JASON – How God Rescued Me and My Family

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My story is similar to many ex-Witnesses. My father attended the Pentecostal church and revivalist meetings in and around the Boston area in rural Lincolnshire England during the 1960’s. My mother was christened into the Anglican Church although she was not active there. When I was born in 1971, my father and mother did not attend church but still had an inner love of God.

In the early 1970’s, my uncle Derrick (who was married to my father’s sister) began a study with the Jehovah’s Witnesses from the Horncastle Congregation. He had been raised a Catholic, but with the help of the Witnesses, quickly accepted the Watchtower Society’s theology. In a short time, he was converted and baptised.  My uncle was articulate in his defense of Watchtower doctrine and he would tie my dad up in knots with biblical quotes. My uncle as a new convert was very zealous. However, he failed to convince his wife and after the 1975 failed Watchtower prophecy about the end times, he became inactive. As the years went by, he became more and more depressed, feeling he had let God down (a common trait in those who drift away from the organisation). Continue reading “Jason – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness”

David H. – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness

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.:THE TESTIMONY OF DAVID H

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I was born in London, England in 1947. My mother and father had both been badly injured during the second World War and were raising us in post War Britain. I had a younger brother and sister and can remember our early life together as being warm and loving as our mother was a wonderful woman—even though she had lost a leg in the final part of the War.

During the early 1950s our lives changed suddenly when two Jehovah’s Witnesses called at our door and told my dad why the World was in such a terrible mess. They explained that it was not God who caused all the Wars—but Satan the Devil. They started a Bible Study with my parents and within 6 months, they were baptized.

From that moment on, my dad became a fanatical preacher of the Watchtower message. Before the War, my dad had been a nominal Catholic and my mother an Anglican, so I had been christened in both churches and then baptized as a Jehovah’s Witness when I was only seven years old. Continue reading “David H. – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness”

Christine – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness

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.:THE TESTIMONY OF CHRISTINE (David’s wife)

I was born in 1949 in England.  When my mother was pregnant with me; my aunt who was a Jehovah’s Witness convinced my mother to start a “Bible Study” with one of her Jehovah’s Witness friends. The woman who studied with my mother was considered to be one of the “anointed remnant” of the 144,000 1. spoken of in Revelation 7 and 14.  Thus, my mother and father joined Jehovah’s Witnesses before I was even born. Continue reading “Christine – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness”

Chris S – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness

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It was in 1967 when my family started associating with Jehovah’s Witnesses. My mother had had me Christened in the United Church in June of 1963 when I was only six months old, but at four years old, she started studying with Jehovah’s Witnesses. So, other than the two or three times when I went to United Church Sunday School, Jehovah’s Witnesses were the only religion I knew growing up. I was surprised to learn that my grandmother’s family had been associated with them since the late 1800’s. By 1968 my father also started studying to become a Jehovah’s Witness, and in 1971, he underwent water baptism as a sign of his devotion to the organization. Continue reading “Chris S – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness”

Allison – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness

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.: THE TESTIMONY OF ALLISON

My parents raised me as a Jehovah’s Witness.  As early as four years old, I can remember attending the meetings and going out in field service door to door.  Our family times consisted of weekly Bible studies using the publications of the Watchtower Society.  Continue reading “Allison – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness”

Andrew – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness

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.:THE TESTIMONY OF ANDREW

I was never a pioneer, an elder or a ministerial servant and I was never wrongly disfellowshipped. I don’t have any hard feelings towards any Witnesses whatsoever. My choice to leave the organization was strictly based on what I found out about the history of the organization, the roots of its teachings and its contrast with historic Christianity. I guess there were times when I felt I was a model Jehovah’s Witness, but then there were times when I can say just the opposite. I was the prodigal son on more than one occasion you might say. I hope to reach anyone who can identify with my story. Continue reading “Andrew – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness”

Doug – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness

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.:THE TESTIMONY OF DOUG

I was born and raised one of Jehovah’s Witnesses. I was involved with the Watchtower organization until I fell away when I was about 14 years of age. I went back to the organization when I was 22 years old, but fell away again 2 or 3 years later. At this point, I was only a publisher, gave a few talks and did a little door-to-door work.

When I left the Watchtower, I moved to Winnemucca. This is where I met my wife and was married in 1997. She was a Christian and had a brother-in-law who was also a Christian. They planted some seeds of truth in my life, but all this did was drive me to my knees before God, being utterly confused! There were just so many religions out there and I didn’t know where to turn. Continue reading “Doug – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness”

Frank M – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness

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.:THE TESTIMONY OF FRANK M

I was born into a Roman Catholic family—a perverse family who were nothing but pedophiles.  At the ripe old age of six, two Jehovah’s Witnesses came to my door and started converting my mom to their religion.  Given the super strong personality that she was, once she believed, she quickly converted my dad and us children.  At the same time that I was being converted into the Jehovah’s Witnesses, I was also being converted into a pedophile’s victim.  My Uncle John started molesting me at age nine. Continue reading “Frank M – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness”

Hazel – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness

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Things all started for me when I when I was about 9 or 10 years old when I went to stay with my aunt. My first conversation with my aunt who is a Jehovah’s Witness got me thinking about God. She had asked, “Hazel, do you believe in God?” I remember specifically saying, “I’m not sure. I guess there could be one.” and that was that.

About 2 or 3 years later when I was 12, I was having a pretty rough time at home because I had grown up, along with one of my brothers in an abusive household. One particular weekend when I visited my aunt, I was feeling pretty down and my aunt started telling me of all the promises that Jehovah has made for the “New World Order” (Watchtower term for the future paradise earth). I heard this and being so young and naïve, I thought “Gee! This sounds good! Maybe God can help my situation.” This is what got me interested in joining the Jehovah’s Witnesses. Continue reading “Hazel – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness”

Kevin – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness

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.: THE TESTIMONY OF KEVIN – An Ex-Jehovah’s Witness Delivered from Homosexuality

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I was born in Connecticut as the youngest of four children in 1955 when gas was still $.39 per gallon. At this time in culture, people didn’t talk about homosexual feelings. It was taboo to even insinuate such things. When the word “gay” was used, people would not think of homosexuality. Instead, they would think of being “happy” or a having “joyful” time, like a festival.  So, people wouldn’t say, “he’s queer” or “he’s different.”  If someone used the term “queer,” it made you feel that you were really a FREAK of nature.  And you were totally ostracized from society. So, to be sensitive, people would just say, “He’s one of THOSE.”

My mother did not know how to show affection.  Never once did she cuddle, hug me or tell me that she loved me.  My first recollection of her is a statement in which she told me:

“You were a mistake. I wish I never had you. You remind me of a BEAST!”  Continue reading “Kevin – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness”

Patty – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness

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I was raised in the Methodist Church and loved the Lord. At one point I was even teaching Sunday School. One day I questioned a lesson plan as it didn’t seem to teach what the Bible said. I asked the minister about it and he said that I didn’t have to understand it, just teach it. I realized that I needed to get to know the Bible better, so I quit teaching the class and joined an adult Sunday School class. But even there, I didn’t receive answers to my questions as the class seemed as confused as I was.

Soon after that, the bulletin announced that they were starting a comprehensive Bible study. I eagerly walked the three-mile distance to the church for the class, but arriving a little late, I was surprised to find that there was no one in the classroom. When I inquired at the church office, I was told that only one other lady showed up for the class, so they had decided to cancel it. I was also informed that the Women’s Auxiliary group was making fruitcakes to sell for Christmas and that I could help. So I went over to the kitchen and found what must have been about thirty women there. When they put an apron on me, I got very upset. I hadn’t come to make fruitcakes! I wanted to learn the Bible!! I ran outside and immediately headed home, earnestly asking God for direction to a new church that taught the Bible. Continue reading “Patty – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness”

Renee – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness

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My name is Renee and I grew up in a small town in Idaho. Population 600 (maybe). My Mom, Sister and our neighbor were the only Jehovah’s Witnesses in this town of Horseshoe Bend. My Dad was not a Jehovah’s Witness and although we were abused by him, my mother stayed with him because the elders looked down upon divorce as “such uncleanness.”

My mother became a Jehovah’s Witness after she married my dad and being 45 minutes away from the closest Kingdom Hall, we were always given the territory of Horseshoe Bend for door to door ministry. Everybody knew us and always TP’d our house—especially around Halloween. My Mother would tell us that the true disciples and “Witnesses of Jehovah” would be persecuted because of their faith. With that idea, I grew up, knowing nothing else.

Going to school was a challenge. Just as I was taught that I would receive “persecution” for my faith, I was hated by my peers and had no friends. My Sister would always have her nose in a book, so I was left to fend for myself. Jehovah’s Witnesses discouraged me from playing sports and I again got flack from my classmates. Although I felt alone, I knew that I was doing the right thing. Continue reading “Renee – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness”

Amber – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness

 amberTHE TESTIMONY OF AMBER

Over the years, I have felt a huge spiritual void. My parents divorced about 12 years ago and dad still believes in the religion but does not practice and my mom fell away completely. I stopped going to the meetings but continued praying to Jehovah because in my heart I felt it was the truth.  I continued to believe in the Jehovah’s Witness beliefs and when asked about it, I would say, “I believe in the doctrine but there are some things I really don’t like, such as feeling constantly guilty and judged, other than that I believe in it.”

I started praying because I missed a sense of security. As a Jehovah’s Witness, we all believed in the same thing. We were a big family as long as we stayed in the religion. (Ironically, now my family is divided because of this religion.)  I began to pray:

“Please Jehovah, I have everything I want except I need you and I have a huge spiritual void. I am soooo confused. I miss the sense of security I had as a Jehovah’s Witness.  I miss the sense of family.  I miss knowing my future in a beautiful paradise, perfect, healthy, and worshiping You. I need to go back to church, but where do I go?  I don’t feel comfortable going back to Jehovah’s Witnesses. Something doesn’t seem right and I don’t want to feel judged and guilty again. But if that is the Truth and your Word, then please give me the strength to go back. Wherever your truth is, please guide me.  I want my children to grow up happy and with the desire to help others. I want them to follow your path not because they are forced or feel guilty, but because they have the overwhelming desire to have complete faith in you and Jesus’ sacrifice for our sins. Not to judge anyone, but to just love them as you and Jesus do.” Continue reading “Amber – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness”

Beryl – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness

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Wow…how do you sum up a life in 3 pages? It would be a challenge for anyone but for a wordy woman like me….doubly so! Then I thought about the Author of my life story and realized that writing a three page testimony is no challenge for Him at all.

You see, for me, even as one of Jehovah’s Witnesses, I always had complete and total trust in Jehovah’s power and faithfulness. When I fell in love with Him at the tender age of seven, He became my world and I couldn’t do or give Him enough of myself and my life. I loved Him, not just the organization. I was also raised that while we were part of the Watchtower, Bible and Tract Society, life was about serving Jehovah, not pleasing man, even in the organization. It never was about Paradise for me or any other benefits I could claim. During the 32 years in the organization, I don’t know how many Jehovah’s Witnesses looked at me like I had lost my mind when I would passionately express the following thought. Continue reading “Beryl – Ex-Jehovah’s Witness”